I Love My Friend

i love my friend

"I loved my friend. He went away from me.
There's nothing more to say.
The poem ends, Soft as it began ----
I loved my friend."
-- Langston Hughes

I actually wanted to get in to those high schools near Miami, so that I could always go to Florida Keys after school to scuba dive. But my parents say that I have to consider about all those transport fares to and fro from home and school and that literally burst my bubble.

Who to blame when my parents have decided to move to this place called Ruskin four years ago?

God, I did not even know that there is a place called Ruskin in Florida. I still remembered before the day we moved, I took out the map of Florida and search frantically for it and it did not even indicate. Guess I must be either too blind to see it or it is just me. Anyways, I could have gone and find a job or something and moved to Miami and rent a house over there and stay. But my parents would not allow.

Nick is the best.

He says that he would have his mum to drive us down to Florida Keys whenever I wanted to. Well, he lives about two houses away from me and so it would not have been a problem and besides we even went to the same school.

- I loved my friend -

Funny as it may seem. I never knew that my life would turn out to be like one of those stories. You know, falling in love with your friend? Yah... As you have guessed it, it is him.

So there you go.

I could never imagine falling in love with him. We did a lot of stupid things together before and had so much fun. We are like the best of friends and he did not even treat me like a girl.

I hated him for that but when he matures a bit, he finally began to understand that there really is a difference between a girl and a boy. It was only then that he started to act like a guy.

A real guy.

And maybe that us how I had fallen for him.

- He went away from me -

It was only until this summer, he told me that he is joining a boy band called Backstreet Boys.

I remembered teasing him about his band name, which reminded me of the Backstreet Market in Orlando. And I am not at all surprised when he told me that they actually got their band name from there. I asked him what would happen to school? He told me that being in a band would mean total devotion to it and there will not be any spare time left when recording and tour starts.

- There's nothing more to say -

Things got really tensed up between the both of us at that very last night. He will be leaving the next morning to Canada for their first actual concert and I will not be seeing him off. I gave him some lame excuse so that I will not be there. Not that I do not want to, it is only that I would end up sending him off in tears. I wanted to tell him about my feelings for him but I just could not. I do not know why but he seems to be able to read my mind.

We almost kissed but we did not.

I know it is kind of confusing as to what really had happened that night. I cannot figure it out too. I was in a daze that night, under his spell. I fell asleep in his lap, beside the pond and under the stars. Maybe I was dreaming, but I thought I felt someone caressing my hair and whisper 'I love you' into my ears. It seems so real, with that breath against my ear as he speaks. But I never ask him about it because I did not want to embarrass myself.

- The poem ends, Soft as it began -

That was the last time that I actually see him, or maybe not. All right. So I admit, I did go to the airport that morning but no one knows.

I was hiding in a corner and watch as everyone says their goodbyes and well wishes to him. He was thanking them and all but he seems to be looking for something cause I kept sawing him looking at the airport entrance.

When the call for his flight came on, I knew it is time for him to leave. I saw the sad look on his face, still looking towards the entrance as he entered the aisle. I have no idea who he was expecting. After he was gone, I went home, using another exit at the far end of the airport so that Nick's family will not see me.

On the journey back, I was looking at the clear blue sky and all those memories that we share just kept coming back in a rush. Too many things for me to think, I closed my eyes and sit back. I felt something in my pocket and reach my hand in. I pull it out and discovered that it was a piece of paper. Curious, I open it and I broke down immediately after reading it.

Dearest April,

I guess it would be years before we meet again, right? I don't know about you but there is something that I have never told you. I never like that girl sitting in the third row. It was you. Yes, it is true. I know I treated you as my best friend but you were my only girl friend. And so falling for you was really unavoidable, wasn't it? Not that I want to avoid it.

Guess you never got my hint, huh? I really hope to see you for one last time before I board the plane. Please come or I'll be really sad.

Love, Nick

So that person whom he was looking out for at the entrance was me.

I never knew it.

I still kick myself for not seeing him off that day. After Nick had gone, my parents suddenly decide to move to Miami. I was really thrilled but it would mean that I would have to leave the place where my memories were planted deep rooted in.

I guess this is what you call life.

For the next 3 years or so, I heard nothing from him until his group began to hit it big back at here. I only knew it when I first heard their song, "I'll Never Break Your Heart" on the radio. And I could not even make out which voice belongs to Nick. When their music video got premiered on TRL, I finally saw him. But it was only through the blurry television screen that I could see him, not in real person. I could never believe that he would turn into such a handsome young man in such a short period. Well, at least for the fact that I have not seen him in years.

- I loved my friend -

I wonder if he still remembers me, this friend who had been waiting to see him again. Maybe he had a girlfriend now or maybe not. But I guess he did have one cause I have heard rumors around that the girl's name is Katherine or something. Anyways, after such a long time, I finally got the chance to meet him again.

And I really hope that the reunion will get us to somewhere. Even if it is going to end in a simple goodbye again, at least I got to say my goodbyes this time.

It is all good to me.
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"I loved my friend. He went away from me.
There's nothing more to say.
The poem ends, Soft as it began ----
I loved my friend."
-- Langston Hughes

I actually wanted to get in to those high schools near Miami, so that I could always go to Florida Keys after school to scuba dive. But my parents say that I have to consider about all those transport fares to and fro from home and school and that literally burst my bubble.

Who to blame when my parents have decided to move to this place called Ruskin four years ago?

God, I did not even know that there is a place called Ruskin in Florida. I still remembered before the day we moved, I took out the map of Florida and search frantically for it and it did not even indicate. Guess I must be either too blind to see it or it is just me. Anyways, I could have gone and find a job or something and moved to Miami and rent a house over there and stay. But my parents would not allow.

Nick is the best.

He says that he would have his mum to drive us down to Florida Keys whenever I wanted to. Well, he lives about two houses away from me and so it would not have been a problem and besides we even went to the same school.

- I loved my friend -

Funny as it may seem. I never knew that my life would turn out to be like one of those stories. You know, falling in love with your friend? Yah... As you have guessed it, it is him.

So there you go.

I could never imagine falling in love with him. We did a lot of stupid things together before and had so much fun. We are like the best of friends and he did not even treat me like a girl.

I hated him for that but when he matures a bit, he finally began to understand that there really is a difference between a girl and a boy. It was only then that he started to act like a guy.

A real guy.

And maybe that us how I had fallen for him.

- He went away from me -

It was only until this summer, he told me that he is joining a boy band called Backstreet Boys.

I remembered teasing him about his band name, which reminded me of the Backstreet Market in Orlando. And I am not at all surprised when he told me that they actually got their band name from there. I asked him what would happen to school? He told me that being in a band would mean total devotion to it and there will not be any spare time left when recording and tour starts.

- There's nothing more to say -

Things got really tensed up between the both of us at that very last night. He will be leaving the next morning to Canada for their first actual concert and I will not be seeing him off. I gave him some lame excuse so that I will not be there. Not that I do not want to, it is only that I would end up sending him off in tears. I wanted to tell him about my feelings for him but I just could not. I do not know why but he seems to be able to read my mind.

We almost kissed but we did not.

I know it is kind of confusing as to what really had happened that night. I cannot figure it out too. I was in a daze that night, under his spell. I fell asleep in his lap, beside the pond and under the stars. Maybe I was dreaming, but I thought I felt someone caressing my hair and whisper 'I love you' into my ears. It seems so real, with that breath against my ear as he speaks. But I never ask him about it because I did not want to embarrass myself.

- The poem ends, Soft as it began -

That was the last time that I actually see him, or maybe not. All right. So I admit, I did go to the airport that morning but no one knows.

I was hiding in a corner and watch as everyone says their goodbyes and well wishes to him. He was thanking them and all but he seems to be looking for something cause I kept sawing him looking at the airport entrance.

When the call for his flight came on, I knew it is time for him to leave. I saw the sad look on his face, still looking towards the entrance as he entered the aisle. I have no idea who he was expecting. After he was gone, I went home, using another exit at the far end of the airport so that Nick's family will not see me.

On the journey back, I was looking at the clear blue sky and all those memories that we share just kept coming back in a rush. Too many things for me to think, I closed my eyes and sit back. I felt something in my pocket and reach my hand in. I pull it out and discovered that it was a piece of paper. Curious, I open it and I broke down immediately after reading it.

Dearest April,

I guess it would be years before we meet again, right? I don't know about you but there is something that I have never told you. I never like that girl sitting in the third row. It was you. Yes, it is true. I know I treated you as my best friend but you were my only girl friend. And so falling for you was really unavoidable, wasn't it? Not that I want to avoid it.

Guess you never got my hint, huh? I really hope to see you for one last time before I board the plane. Please come or I'll be really sad.

Love, Nick

So that person whom he was looking out for at the entrance was me.

I never knew it.

I still kick myself for not seeing him off that day. After Nick had gone, my parents suddenly decide to move to Miami. I was really thrilled but it would mean that I would have to leave the place where my memories were planted deep rooted in.

I guess this is what you call life.

For the next 3 years or so, I heard nothing from him until his group began to hit it big back at here. I only knew it when I first heard their song, "I'll Never Break Your Heart" on the radio. And I could not even make out which voice belongs to Nick. When their music video got premiered on TRL, I finally saw him. But it was only through the blurry television screen that I could see him, not in real person. I could never believe that he would turn into such a handsome young man in such a short period. Well, at least for the fact that I have not seen him in years.

- I loved my friend -

I wonder if he still remembers me, this friend who had been waiting to see him again. Maybe he had a girlfriend now or maybe not. But I guess he did have one cause I have heard rumors around that the girl's name is Katherine or something. Anyways, after such a long time, I finally got the chance to meet him again.

And I really hope that the reunion will get us to somewhere. Even if it is going to end in a simple goodbye again, at least I got to say my goodbyes this time.

It is all good to me.